Why are you doing this to me?

When I close my eyes and when I don't see,

There is a silhouette in my mind,
Of a Punjabi boy who is one of a kind.

Harjas, oh Harjas, earlier when you confessed,

I blindly said yes.

To myself I was joking,

But having you by my side, didn't know what I had which was living.

On a bench together, in a classroom XII Science B2, sitting,

I knew you liked me anyway as you were flirting.

'143' on my books, that's what you were writing,

"Do you know what this means?", you were ignorantly asking.

You're too cute, too smart, too strong and too down to earth,

With you, there is an everlasting drink of happiness and mirth.

Harjas, oh Harjas,each day we grew closer and something new was starting,

After I threw all my doubts about you, is the day I started smiling.

You said you never saw the world at 5:00 a.m. so early,

But you woke up running everyday, faster and faster just to see me.

Those words made me realize how horrible I was,

I only hurted you and regret it because,

You're so amazing and you're my only one,

You're my first love, you're my Janemaan.

1st kiss, 1st time sneaking out, 1st date, with you was a start of a new beginning,

My heart could explode, because I knew it was in your love, I was falling.

Harjas, Oh Harjas,

Winters so cold, but not as cold as the time spent without you,

Because life without you, is like a desert without water,

I would feel all alone, like I've been left in a gutter,

But here I am, moving on without you,

Don't blame me, beacuse I have to.

We have many questions unanswered that's true,

As I walk this road of life without you,

I only thank you for you've given me all the love ,

I only ask the Almighty God to shower you blessings from above,

My heart is only blessed and touched because of you,

And it only remembers that boy it gave it to.

~Sabrina Waldorf (Ruksana