Why do I act the way I do,
Why do I feel this way,
Why do I let him get to me,
Why do I care so much,
Why do I love too much?

One Word...Love

As inconsiderate as I can be, only one person can hold my feelings.

I am wrapped up by his chain. It's securely locked by an unknown key that only he possesses.

My mind and emotions only pertain to him. I am slowly becoming disfigured by it all as time passes by. It becomes more of a mess. My uncertainess is returning, which is inescapable. Control is the only outlet that I have.

The sudden switch from complete happiness to outraged just by his voice is terrifying enough for me, yet very exilirating for me to experience.

I allow his hold on me. I allow this emotional hold since he's my love. I've already acknowledged the fact that this is unethical and not logical. A barrier should be present, but I can't find it in myself to do so yet.

Love is the main perspective of all that's happening. He has all of me without having all of me. Love keeps my mouth sealed. Certain things I keep within are for my own good as well as his.

A factual statement I can make is that our love is real. Perfection is impossible, yet we know eachother's flaws and love them all. Our relationship isn't forced by peers and society. Problems we come across are only test that we can overcome. We both know this is indeed true!

I believe I have musturd up enough strength to make some adjustments. Happiness existed in our past and still exists in our present, but we can add more for our future to come!

So the wondering, as of now, isn't neccessary.

~Monique Cooper