My Dearest Angel!

Life is so unfair, had it not been we wouldn't be staying away from each other. This is what I have doing lately, complaining about life and time for making us live apart. Its been long since we saw each other my dear. I feel a void in me, a void that can be filled only by you. I miss you. I want to come to you right now, hold you, embrace you, look into your eyes, tell you how much I love you, kiss you and make love to you. Why is life so unfair? I want you now. There is an urge in me that seeks you. I need you. Today I saw a morning dew on a rose, it was beautiful and I remembered you. You are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life. There is something about you that makes me go weak on my knees. I remember how I felt the very first time I saw you, I felt butterflies in my stomach, I could feel my heart skip a beat, not once but every time you winked your eyes, I felt like I was a 12 year old boy, feeling shy. Then I remember our first kiss. The moment you came close to me, I felt my heart stop, I couldn't breathe, all I could see was your eyes, the deep brown eyes that always kept me guessing, and then we kissed and I came to life, In fact, I have never felt more alive. I remember how your hair touches your forehead, the curls it had, how you used to play with it, the way you used to cuddle, the way you used to keep your fingers on your lips and the way you would blush when I tease you. I miss you! I want to go back to those days, listen to all those beautiful songs along with you, lie on you lap, look at the stars, feel the cold breeze, hold your hand and I want my heart to stop when you come close to me, to kiss me. I need you. Why did you have to be so beautiful, so loving and affectionate. I wonder if there is anything other than love that you even know. You taught me what it is to love and to be loved. As I write this, tears roll down my cheeks, its because of your love. Its because of your love that I miss you so much. There have been times when I have wondered if I deserved so much love. Why did you have to love me so much and then be so far away. You are the most beautiful, passionate and giving soul I have seen. I love you for what you are and I love you more for what you are not. I miss you!!!

-Vikas Vijayakumar