Troubled in love

10 years ago

We are both good childhood friends. We spend only 1 year together. Last time I saw her 12 years before, but she saw me 6 year before, she always noticed me more than 4 years but never talk to me as she always scared of me because of my anger. But I never ever noticed her as I was busy with my studies. During graduation years we met through social sites. I am living in extreme north and she is living extreme south of the country. We talk a lot but as a friend. I have lots of feeling for her but can't express it well. Although I told her how I feel for her. She replied that she already knew that I love her when we met. But she dont want this relationship and stay with me as a friend. She thought she is not worthy enough for me. She thought she is too short in height, complexion color, not good figure; our culture, language, traditions are different. Parent are not going to support us. So she made distance from me, not talking to me. So I went to her city, to her office just to confirm what really happen to her. I wait for her but she didnt come. She didnt reply to me. From friends I knew that she was scared of me and too angry. She thinks that I am madly behind her and I am too much stubborn. Well I think I am not worthy enough for her as I am jobless, no home, no support from my family, no future; just opposite she has job, big home, support of her family. But still I am optimistic that one day I will make all of these things, but to happen this I need time almost 5-6 years. And she might get married within 3-4 years. And this make my life upside down. I cant plan anything what to do. I have her cell number only, but cant call her as it makes awkward and even I have lot of problem while communicating with her. I dont have her address. I ask every friend to help me; but instead helping me they disheartened me, made me to forget her, some says its not love, some says she is not worthy for you. But I am not listening to them, I am just listening to my heart. But I have no idea what to do. Can you just help me?

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