i dont know what to do????

basically i love this guy but i reallydont want to but i cant help it and every time i try to stop i CANT!!! and he was really nice to me cos as well as that i have a really unsupportive family and they all hate me which isnt great. i also get bullied by a girlwho used to bemy best friend. and hte guy iliked was really nice to me but then one day i was standing in front of himwaiting for the bus and he said he hated me and god i dont know what to do can someone help me because im cracking under the strain... thanks