love

my name is misbah and my lover name is usama we were clas felows of childhood in our child hood he loves me alot but at that time i did not but when i grew up i began to love him but before contct i want to just inform him about my feeling and when he informed my aim was to get him out from my heart because it is not suitable that girl purposed first but he insisted me alot to in his life then i agree and we comited evn when i told him that i want to marry with the person with whom i love other wise never should do love he says i would like you do both things with me but later on it begans fight between us we both want to live with each other but he is little bit unexpressive and i like expresions we both hesitate to expres our feelings both wan that next one express his feelings first and in this way we hesitate and this hesitation makes our relation weak we both know we love each other but due to this hesitation we think that next one ignoring this become a big problem i am a girl i cannot make myself expressive befor than him how can i make him expressive how can i bring colours in rellation?