lost

messed up real bad when i first seen briahna she was 12 and i was 14 i told my self i wanted to marry her she was going to be the one but complications came up and she didnt really trust me so i gained her trust and we started talking two years later she was 14 and i was 16. when i turned 17 she turned 15 and we started dationg everything was good until the other girl came into the picture i told her i was in love and the other girl jamie had a finace so we decided to become friend but jamie wanted to be more so we messed around but i felt so bad i didnt know what to do finally briah found out and that was that im now 20 and i still think about her everyday she the one that got away we talk from time to time but i can tell i hurt her bad i really want her to trust me but i know she cant that easy bc what i had done what should i do