I WILL DIE WITHOUT HER

I love her from school and it is being 10 years that i love only and only her but i could never say her how much i love her because i always afraid of loosing simple friendly relation with her in my school time and after school when i had some courrage before i could say anything one boy proposed her and now they are in relationship for almost 4 years..but i never loose hope because i know that nobody can love her more than me and i never say her that i love her but do many things for her that only a lover can do..but her boyfriend don't like our friendship so atfirst she lied to her boyfriend and we had a hidden more than friendship relation beetween us but now she is feeling guilty for being my friend and for taking my gifts and for our whole happy 2years relation..and she was affraid that her love relationship will be affected because of me so she left me and there is not just a minimum talking beetween us from 10 months..but i can't tolerate this anymore and she is not ready to listen anything and for no reason she is behaving like hating me..but whatever happends i stil love her so much more than my life and i really can't live without her...is there anyway for me to live or at the end i will hab to die without her!!!!!